i think its the feeling that when i was young i would loved to have been able to ask someone i respected a question and have him/her respond to it… so maybe its kind of a little guilt trip i put on myself :)
id feel like a bit of an asshole if i removed myself from a community that wants to reach out to me.. but at times i dont know how much longer i can do it.
even now i worry that doing these ill just end badly :)